Just what makes that little old ANT

Ok, now I clean the counters real good from breakfast then I sit and stare and wait. I wait for the ants!! They are small and they just arrive out of nowhere and say "I'm hungry". I watch them as they move around in little circles looking for the food that is not there anymore. Of course they are a little angry, I'm sure, that I took the juice spill away or that the spilled cereal is cleaned up. It's just that I can't handle these little things in my SPACE!! It is MY kitchen and I am taking it back!! I pay a good man to come out here and spray for all the other bugs that lurk out there and this ant thing is my fight (even if he did bait the suckers). I will conquer it!! So, you little ants think your having a party don't you?

Well I don't think you are going to find any rubber tree plants to move in here so I think it is time to move on. Or you will get the squish of my rag and the spray of my trigger. Sorry, no bug protection rights here. So... ooops there goes another sugar ant... ooops there goes another sugar ant... oops there goes another sugar and hopefully they are all gone ~ whew!!

I'm in too much of a hurry to enjoy Christmas...

It seems like after being out of the states this is what I get from the people back here in the states.

You get asked "have you got all your shopping done?" or "are you ready for Christmas?" the answer is no and no. I never have and never will be. The fact is when going through my box of bags bows and stuff I actually found stuff for a friend of mine from last year that I didn't even send to her. Sad isn't it!!

Last year we thought we were doing everything right and STILL a whole two boxes were not even sent out right and I sent two unknown boxes to destinations unknown and even when called by the pack and wrap place and sending the "right stuff" I felt like such a fool. Such time spent on finding the right gift (ok not my time but the Hubby's time). But he spent all that time was ahead of Christmas only to be sent well after Christmas only because of a mix up. All to have no feed back if it was well received.

Now... I have to be honest when you are so far away (even if you can still pick up a phone mentally you are still far away) you don't communicate like you do when you are in the states. So... I don't communicate like I'm supposed to sometimes and don't say what I am supposed to and send the thanks for the things I am supposed to.

I guess things used to be simple back when it was just Santa bringing something under the tree and me making something for Mema and Pa out of something I found on the beach when we were down on the gulf coast for Christmas since I had no money to spend. Of course this is 30 years ago!!

Here is the deal. I just can't stress over what to buy. No really, I can't!! I won't and I will get what I can but I have to let it go. I can't buy for those that have everything they need. I can only get creative and buy for what I know that they don't have and I feel they will like. My kids need nothing. I need nothing... just love and I have that. I have kisses... I have been hugged today. That is all I need. I have a dog who puts his nose on my lap and just unconditionally trust and loves me. She gets bones and is happy. Believe it or not I'm happy with a bone (ok we call them oatmeal squares and she can't tell the difference between them and a treat).

So... I just want to say... truly I'm working on it!! Finding the right gift...I got something in my mail or rather it was actually a bulletin on MYSPACE but it hit home!! I BLOG because I don't do E-MAIL forwards. So many people read this BLOG. Maybe this will touch you like it touched me. Please copy and send it to people. It is really good and maybe it will put the focus back on where Christmas really needs to me!!

REFLECTING on this... FUNNY THIS IS what was read at my wedding!! THE #1 scripture read at most wedding!! My anniversary is on the 19th. 18 years WOW!!... and no, I have NOT bought a present for that... don't get me started on that... hurry up and buy for your anniversary!

CHRISTMAS LOVE
(paraphrase of 1st Corinthians 13)

If I decorate my house perfectly with plaid bows, strands of twinkling lights and shiny balls, but do not show love to my family, I'm just another decorator.

If I slave away in the kitchen, baking dozens of Christmas cookies, preparing gourmet meals and arranging a beautifully adorned table at mealtime, but do not show love to my family, I'm just another cook.

If I work at the soup kitchen, carol in the nursing home and give all that I have to charity, but do not show love to my family, it profits me nothing.

If I trim the spruce with shimmering angels and crocheted snowflakes, attend a myriad of holiday parties and sing in the choir's cantata but do not focus on Christ, I have missed the point.

Love stops the cooking to hug the child.

TO RANT... OR TO PONDER... That is the question??

OK... I don't get SPAM anymore!!

(I mean I get spam all the time I just don't understand SPAM anymore)

In the middle of some advertisement (SPAM) e-mail I got for some Drug (SPAM) that I must buy that is really cheap (SPAM) that I could get without a prescription (SPAM) that could cause major problems with my body (SPAM) there is a little story that makes no sense at all.

This is how it starts out:

"because our fake dog was digging away like a real dog throwing
dirt Tremearne took off and we settled down to sleep. We slept, and woke up"

This is how it ends:

"...He heaved himself to his feet while"

I don't get it!! WHY THE STORY?? Does it help someway get the DRUG e-mail to go through the filter so that we the people on the reading side will suddenly go WOW we MUST buy THIS drug (SPAM)!!

NO!!

We see the stupid story and we know it is SPAM!! We then click SPAM and it goes to our SPAM folder.

So why the stupid stories and dumb sayings and poetry lines. I don't get it!! I now get about 100 spams a day on my Yahoo account. I ponder how I suddenly get so many when I don't sign up for ANYTHING with this e-mail address online (I use trash e-mail accounts for everything I do online).

Hmmm the little things that make one wonder sometimes!!

I guess all it takes is for your e-mail to get into the wrong hands, or consumer. Still pondering....

So stupid stories and Spam will just continue... it is a never ending story. At least Yahoo has a good filter and I have a good eye for catching things.

I do enjoy seeing the daily SPAM of the day HOT SUBJECT!!

Christmas Tree is up!!

Thanks to Corbin our Christmas tree is up!!

Please go by and look at the slide show on the kids blog.

Find out more about how it got up by going to my MY MYSPACE - if you don't know how to get there go to http://www.myspace.com/tape_scotch_tape (this is for those of you that checked out my last blog but don't ever comment).

Anyway I hope your Holiday's are going as well as ours are!!

Don't let Christ be left out of your Christmas. So when you are on MYSPACE check out my blog Burlap to Cashmere!!

Micki

He doesn't even sing in it... But He steals your heart anyway!!

Ok, I just realized I don't own the DVD!!

Ok, I just realized I don’t own the DVD to PRINCESS BRIDE!!

DID somebody get the hint??

I had to do a search for something that Westley says in the movie.

"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something" It's true and I never could remember it right and I just wanted to remember it because I seem to have been in a bit of pain over the last year and I could have used a bit of snake oil but it seems I saw through all the sales people.

Then while looking it up I remembered... MANDY PATINKIN!!

Known as ~ Inigo Montoya: "My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die."

Of course I know him as "Sunday in the Park With George" ~ a Musical (yes) he has got the most beautiful voice and he did a whole movie with Barbara Streisand and never sang a word (Yentl).

He is in my TOP 10 people who I could sit and listen to just sing without musicians. Once on Dave Letterman he just sang "Somewhere over the Rainbow" out of the blue and it took my breath away.... and there went my heart.

It's the simple things (a stocking stuffer would do nice) a movie like Princess Bride where you have True Love and nothing is inconceivable!!

This was the best thing that I could find that just captured his voice...

My Christmas Tree is Broken - INTERJECTION - OUCH THAT HURTS!!

Ok,

Andrew decided to take the Tree which already had I believe 10 strands of lights on it wrapped so nicely around an eight foot tree. I do this because an old boss of mine taught me how to do it before you set the tree up the first time so as not to have to do it again and again each year. Well Andrew started to take it out of its special box and it was broken and it would not stand up. He did this while I was napping. I would have tried Scotch Tape. I would have tried any 3M product but he said it would not have worked and it was doomed. The tree would not stand alone and Corbin was not up for standing for 30 days while we plugged him in and fed him and he held up the tree. SO....

Arghhhh... I have to go shopping!!

Ok... I can do this.... but what do I buy??

TALL? SKINNY? FAT? GREEN? BLUISH? REAL? (scratch that not real) I now have decisions!! Andrew goes on watch tomorrow (Monday so I have two days to research and figure out WHERE I can really put a TREE in this house (my ceilings are rather high) and what kind of TREE we really NEED!! If it were me I would just pull out my four foot tree that I can place on my ROD IRON table and call it the tree but the kids will not buy it. They want the whole nine yards TREE, LIGHTS, CAMERA and ACTION. So.... INPUT - HELP PLEASE!!
Off to pull the Sunday paper out of the trash....

If only I had known about this before BLACK FRIDAY.... INTERJECTION!!

Can't I just borrow one from a picture and poof instant tree?

CORBIN AND TORREY PICTURES SAY SO MUCH

PLEASE TAKE A LOOK AT THE KIDS PICS

http://fergiskids.blogspot.com/

I posted some slide shows of the kids from Thanskgiving up and that is what I am truly blessing God for!! The ease that they have brought the last few months of moving and starting school and you can just see it in their faces how happy and good they are doing.

Like I said before -

the holidays are just starting!!

count down is beginning!!

HUGS,

Micki

IN THE LAST TEN YEARS.. the last 10 days....

Ok, I must confess, not only did I go over to the sparkles and the glitter but I took my mother with me.

I found refuge there.

It's funny.


I know...

MY SPACE...

It can be somewhat addicting.... but yet if used correctly you can truly find some people you have really wanted to hook up with. People you can stay in touch with that you never thought you could stay in touch with

YOUR SPACE...

I can spy on you...

not what I really wanted to do...

SO I STOPPED

MY SPACE

I want to be your friend so please stay in contact with me I'm so thrilled I found you

YOUR SPACE...

I LOVE your music now I can keep up with where your concerts are at and I can know when your album as due to release and I can say Johnny Cash in the Grave is still MY FRIEND!!

MY SPACE...

I can still have a say in what I want to say - choices and pictures and glitter and such but here is where I can have my voice I can blog there but there I feel naked somehow. Here I feel I can feel free. But there is one thing that I have found that MY SPACE THE SPACE HAS and that is a connection to each other through each other. How we all are connected I know her and he knows him and so on. It's funny. Like playing the game six degrees of seperation.

I also found a place where I am completely at peace on MY SPACE - not MY SPACE but a place I made.

It's MY MOMS SPACE

It's beautiful - It's filled with gorgeous colors of purple and a cartwheel in the right corner. She wanted roses so I gave her roses everywhere there are flowers. She wanted Kenny Rogers to sing the Roses song but it wasn't on HIS site. So I made him a friend. It was funny it took him almost 10 days to become a friend. But I found the video of the song sung by someone else which you can just watch. I put the pictures of the cats done by the same person who did the fatcow that scroll by and then the rose that Andrew took for her is on it.

You can check out her MY SPACE icerune

Now - I tell you about this site because I made it for her - because I have had some down time lately where I just needed some time to myself and funny I have had lots of music to listen to but I have had this one song to listen to

YES - it is about a song - you thought it wouldn't be didn't you - I gave you the hint from the title!!

anyway,

THE LAST 10 YEARS by KENNY ROGERS (who by the way is also a MY SPACE friend as well)
has just been really speaking to me because it has been the last 10 years of my life that I have lived having these kids in my life.

The Last Ten Years

Oh, the last ten years.
It's been quite a trip.
Over thirty-six hundred spins around,
without a cosmic slip.
But within the realm,
Of our atmosphere.
We're about as out of whack,
As we've ever been in a million years.

We watched the Y2K scare in a panic. I WAS AT DISNEY WORLD
And we watched as time proved Nostradamus wrong.
And we watched as Mother Nature shook the planet,
And celluar replaced the telephone. MY FIRST PHONE BOUGHT IN OMAHA 6 years ago
We lost charlie Brown, WE ALSO LOST JIM HENSON
Ray Charles and Johnny Cash,
We even lost Superman.

Well the last ten years,
Look at the hills we've climbed.
The best golfer's black the best rapper's white, I REMEMBER WHEN TIGER WAS 18
And it's about damn time. KID ROCK - DEBBIE did it first -
But we'd best beware,
There's a brand new fight y'see. IF WE DON'T START SEEING THAT THERE IS A NEW FIGHT TO SEE
And I hate to say we might be our own worst enemy.

We watched Oklahoma sifting through the damage,
And we watched the US President get caught. PANTS DOWN
We watched share holders watch their savings vanish, IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN
We all cried when we watched those towers fall. I STILL SEE IT IN MY MINE -WE SAW IT LIVE
We lost Minnie Pearl,
Ron Reagon and Sam I Am. MY HERO, MY HERO and MY HERO
We even lost Superman.

Expensive gas and free downloads, WILL HE EVEN BE PAID FOR MY MOMS DOWNLOAD
The dot com boom and reality shows.
What's gonna happen next is anybodys guess.
Satellite radio and hypercars,
Handheld computers and a trip to Mars. I DON'T EVEN USE MY PALM ANYMORE
It's all become a part of who we are.

In the last ten years,
In the last ten years,
we lost George Harrison,
John Paul and June Carter Cash, WE LOST JOHNNY CASH
Hell, we even lost Superman.

Gonna miss you, Chris. BUT HE DID SO MUCH!!

I just sit there and watch the space - MOM's space listen to the song and feel so much better - so if anyone needs to feel comforted go there - I asssure you watching the roses and even watching the video or the song on the video. Is a great rest.

Check out her myspace icerune

THE EAGLE HAS LANDED!! HE'S HOME

January 2006

In an E-mail from a
friend, a MOM of a new SOLDIER who was just sent over there. THE SANDBOX

Please send some junk food like candy bars and Doritos. Will message
again as soon as possible. Working Hard

I could cry. I'm very happy, and
very proud, and very sad.

BACKSTORY

I was the interim Youth Pastor of a church for almost a year and got real close to several of the parents and several of the kids that were seniors that year. One of them was called Andy. Ok Now his mother of course called him Andrew. She wanted him to go to College but he had a great desire and a great need to become an airborne ranger. To go and fight for our country and I in my heart knew that was what he was going to do. His first war was to win the one against her. He would have to fight a mother who only had one son to send off to a place that was dangerous when he could stay in a safe place close to home, closer to her and go to college.

IN December 04 he graduated from Basic Training only to be sent to sit a while in Texas so close to home doing paper work and waiting.

“We learned on Wednesday (day before Thanksgiving) that Andrew may be sent home to do some Home Town Recruiting. He could fly in on Monday. That would just be soooo wonderful!!!! He'd be home for approximately two weeks and then travel to Fort Hood, TX. He shared that the electronic version of his orders (received Wednesday) has him going to TX, but because it's not a paper copy, he can't say with complete certainty that this is his destination. We'll just wait and see.

How have you lived with the military mentality of "this could happen,
but this might, and then this may be what happens instead?" I feel like
everything is certain, but nothing is concrete. What a rotten way to manage a person's life.” MOM was learning fast that her son was not her son anymore but the property of the military.

So one year passes and he goes off and then I get this E-MAIL:

Nov 11th 2006 we FINALLY have heard from HIM.

This morning (while we were sleeping), He left a message. He's in
(blank) now and expects to arrive at Fort Hood, TX this Tuesday, November 14th approximately 2 PM.

Praise God! Praise GOD! PRAISE GOD!!!!! He will
remain in TX for approximately 30 days for reintegration. Then home!! What a wonderful Christmas gift. I'm beside myself with relief and long awaited joy.

Thank you, thank YOU, THANK YOU, dear friends, for your ongoing prayers,
encouragement, and emotional support during this long, difficult time for us.

Have a blessed day,

___________

Nov 15th 2006 Just wanted to let you all know
that Andrew arrived in Texas noon-ish today.

A day later than expected,
but here nonetheless.

I just got off the phone w/him.

Praise the
LORD

______________________________

Now, Ok, Why do I tell this story? Because Andy or Andrew (whatever you call him - I call him Andy) the 18 year old my husband chaperoned to his HIGH SCHOOL PROM (drove him to and from to keep them safe) was meant to go to war. He wanted to go and he knew it from the time he was around 16. I knew it I could see it in his eyes. He was one of those kids that like playing those video games (where they shoot each other and get all the computers in the same room). But it was more than that. I had a strange feeling deep in my gut that God had a Plan for him. Still has a plan for him. Will he go back? Will he stay on? All I know right now is Mom is happy he is home for Christmas. I don’t ask any questions. I just know that God had a plan a long time ago that this kids was meant to be exactly where he was this last year and I have no doubt he had some bad times, sad times but he had the ride of his life. God prepared him for it. I saw it in his eyes when he asked me to calm him Mom’s nerves when he asked me to talk to her about him joining the Army. Let’s see he must be almost 22 now. A man!! Ten years older than Corbin. Could I do it? I don’t know but boy I would be saying thank you, thank you, thank you for bringing my baby home too from a place like where he just came from. I’m glad he is home safe Until he goes again.

My husband will put him on his lists of Vets he honors!!

I have never been prouder of a kid correction MAN I helped mold!! and a MAN who helped me come to terms with GOD HAS A PLAN - see ANDY helped me listen to GOD even over this last year to listen more than talk to GOD!! Andy was and is smart beyond his years.

It’s funny it all comes down to they just want Doritos!! Simple things in life!!

Still the same!!

Let the Holiday’s begin!!

ANDREW MADE ME A POSTER I HAVE TO SHARE

IT SEEMS HE MADE A CARD AFTER FINDING FOUR MISTAKES IN THE RANTING BY THE HOMOPHONE TRIBUTE TO WHOEVER BLOGS SO INCORRECTLY (I WAS ASSUMING IT WAS ME) BUT I ASSURE YOU FINGERS WERE POINTED EVERWHERE SO.... THIS IS TO EVERYONE... This is for all of you who have ever been picked on!! Thanks, Andrew, I needed it!! I feel so much better... no. INTERJECTION!! DAMN!! I, FEEL GREAT!!

I got my INTERJECTIONS down RIGHT but stink at HOMOPHONES!!

So.... Instead I focused on the interjections like HEY - OUCH - with !! and comma's
and then went on to WELL, HEY, WOW, HEY!!
I got that down pretty good.
I guess you could say I learned more from the TV -
Learned even more interjections can't repeat (can we kids)
Enjoy the video....
because after that
darn... that's the end.....of my rant (I wonder how many mistakes I made typing this up) hmmm
oh - click the button and injoy the interjection song - my favorite!!!

I grew up Country - so I cry Country Tears.... Right

Ok, Now like every other girl in the 70's I grew up singing
Delta Dawn what's that flower you got on could it be a faded.... from days gone by
and then there was the
LIKE A RHINESTONE COWBOY - yep then my brother would go "boing boing"
"getting card and letters from people I don't even know"

I even had the origional Donny and Marie "I'm a little bit Country - and I'm a little bit Rock and Roll. I was really cool.

Yesterday I tried to sing the whole song "YOU LIGHT UP MY LIFE" in front of my son to my husband just for fun. Funny how we forget some of the words. I did make up some great new ones and we laughed and laughed till Callie (the dog) thoughed it was tickle time!

Here is the kicker.
I have all along made my kids (ok they havn't been tied down I have let them listen if they want to) listen to all sorts of stuff and it just so happens that C. W. McCALL Convoy was one of my favorites so we played it alot. So was Johnny Cash. Well Johnny Cash just passed away. So.... His songs are popular and we didn't plan on that. It is strange that he was still writing music till his dying day. I am so taken back by what it is and says that I just have to share it. So many emotions have I been through the last year that it seems like his life has been mixed with mine somehow and in that I feel the need to share this video. Maybe there is a message for us all in it somehow!!

If you haven't heard Johnny's final album, American V: A Hundred Highways, and you're a country music fan, then you're missing out. Producer Rick Rubin summed it up best when he said, "These songs are Johnny's final statement. They are the truest reflection of the music that was central to his life at the time. This is the music that Johnny wanted us to hear." Listen to “God’s Gonna Cut You Down” http://christianmusic.about.com/b/a/257016.htm

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Well my goodness gracious let me tell you the news
My head's been wet with the midnight dew
I've been down on bended knee talkin' to the man from Galilee
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel's feet
He called my name and my heart stood still
When he said, "John go do My will!"

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand
Workin' in the dark against your fellow man
But as sure as God made black and white
What's down in the dark will be brought to the light

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

I DON'T CARE

It seems like you ask the question? Sweetie are you going to brush your hair you get the response. With of course shrugged shoulders "I don't care". Well today, I did that and got that along with are you really going to wear that and did you brush your teeth? I realize I also have been doing the same thing. Micki what do YOU want for Dinner? "I don't Care" (and I don't). Hmmm

So... What has been going through my head is it that we just moved here and still have boxes to unload and don't want to do the last of the last.
Truly - I don't care about doing that!! I DON'T CARE! oops

I can tell you it reminds me of along along time ago - back when I was about oh eight I had a record player (ok you hear a song in this) and Carly Simon had these records called the Rosie Something (probably could look it up). Anyway there was a song that was called I Don't Care.

It was Very VIVID and made a great point and I think of it all the time when I get to this point and I want to share it with you all.

read the first chapter then listen to the story - if you have kids listen with them it is a good video to watch for adults and kids and has a great moral!!

Pierre
Carole King

[Prologue:]
There was once a boy named Pierre
Who only would say, I don't care!
Read his story, my friend, for you'll find
At the end that a suitable
Moral lies there

[Chapter I]

One day his mother said
When Pierre climbed out of bed
-Good morning, darling boy, you are my only joy
Pierre said-I don't care!
-What would you like to eat?
-I don't care!
-Some lovely cream of wheat?
-I don't care!
-Don't sit backwards in your chair
-I don't care!
-Or pour syrup on your hair
-I don't care!
-You are acting like a clown
-I don't care!
-And we have to go to town
-I don't care!
-Don't you want to come, my dear?
-I don't care!
-Would you rather stay right here?
-I don't care!
So his mother left him there

PONDERISMS

PONDERISMS

(comical food for thought)

• I used to eat a lot of natural foods until I learned that most
people die of natural causes.

• Gardening Rule: When weeding, the best way to make sure you are
removing a weed and not a valuable plant is to pull on it. If it
• comes out of the ground easily, it is a valuable plant.

• The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a
replacement.

• Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.

• There are two kinds of pedestrians: the quick and the dead.

• Life is sexually transmitted.

• Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.

• The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth.

• Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals
dying of nothing.

• Have you noticed since everyone has a camcorder these days no one
talks about seeing UFOs like they used to?

• Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again

• All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no
attention to criticism.

• In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the
world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

• How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes
a whole box to start a campfire?

• Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll
squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?"

• Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken there? I'm gonna
eat the next thing that comes outta its butt."

• Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

• Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?

• Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets
mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head
out the window?

• Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

• Do you ever wonder why you gave me your email address

or

Did you actually ponder why I didn't send this to you,

Or did I? Let's ponder over it.

I even PONDER why PONDERISM isn't in the dictionary - is that wrong of me?

I promise I will ponder less produce more.. spelling and all... good/bald/ sticky sweet/ cut throat/or just being me. I'm me if's my voice!! Don't you every Ponder why I ever let you know about this BLOG in the ifrst place. Because there was something I wanted you to know. I wanted you know ME.

DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR GOING TO....

Mrs. S (Jen) as we so "used" to call you.
I dedicate this Blog to you.

I was around 5th grade and this song became a hit. It kicked but since it knocked off Barry Manailow and "I Write the Songs" so since at the age of what 10 I knew I had to listen in. It had to be a "winner". Little did I know that not only the song would mean so much but even the movie as many times as I have seen it (even tho it has been a while) I am still impacted by it and I wanted to just let you get a taste of it.

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is
showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?

Do you get
what you're hoping for?
When you look behind you
there's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

Once we were standing
still in time
Chasing the fantasies
That filled our minds

You
know how I loved you
But my spirit was free
Laughing at the questions
That you once asked of me

Chorus: * Do you know...?

Now
looking back at all we've planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip
through our hands

Why must we wait so long
Before we'll see
How
sad the answers
To those questions can be?

Chorus: * Do you know...?

So the Tagline to the Movie - which of course I could not see at the age of what 10 was:

"Success is nothing without someone you love to share it with"

And I didn't understand really what the song meant except that I was the one that made MY DREAMS and I was the one that had to keep up on my dreams and I was the one that had to answer to those dreams. and answer those questions. Do I know where I am going to!! Do I like the things that life is showing me!! You know me I'd be singing it to you now!! Hey maybe I am speaking to me, Torrey, my sister-in-law - my neighbors my friends - we all should know where we are going!! In the movie which I finally did see when it was on TV she says "Your only young once, you can be immature forever". Nope, If I live with that, can't work doesn't make my dream work better either so the movie isn't perfect either.

Just wanted you to know your special enough for me that you now have a a Micki Blog dedicated to YOU!! Now remember the disclaimer on my profile nothing is related to nothing and nothing means nothing etc... take my advice or don't won't mean a hill of beans - lol

Now enjoy a little bit of Diana singing the song... just push the arrow

HMMM... who is her teacher??

I knew .... I downloaded these pictures and I thought.... they looked familiar... like someone was teaching her something... teaching her to grab the camera and just use it for their own use of some sort. Was it a society out there. I personaly can't do it. I tried once and got a picture of my toe. Somehow she has been trained and she has been trained well!

Now I do know someone who has failed the course fortunately his face is hidden and you can't tell who he is so his embarrasement will not be to big so that you will laugh at him if seen on the streets (or soccer field).

So...

The results of this Camera downloaded SHOCK? -hey how did HE get in the picture - now we all really know don't we!!

one whole year has past....

Happy birthday to my nephew.... yeah!!
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lots has happened... moving, new house etc....

I went back and looked at an old blog of mine

OCT 21 IN THE DARK

and I hope I am still trying not to pocket those dreams....
I think I'm doing a pretty good job at doing that!! Hopefully some other people have decideded to empty their pockets full of their shattered dreams and started living the life the really wanted in the first place too. All I know is I am seeing so much of Misawa opening up these boxes and putting things in their proper places in my new house that it just seems like yesterday I was on this computer getting ready for the next Bazaar or even the bazaar a year ago today folding those flyers. All those memories. If only my eyes had been more focused but that's what in the dark means. (hand hits forhead) I did find the perfect place for the Butterfly chest next to the red leather couch recliners in the den/tv room/game room. It holds all the games and looks great. So NO, Janet, not going to sand it down and re-paint it, although I really was hoping I was going to get to do it! Well - Misawa is not in the dark for me and I do miss some of it - I miss buying my bit of the Bazaar. I never got to shop. I always thought I would have another one to buy out. Oh well. So we bought a bigger house and real wood furniture and real appliances. No worries here!!

As the kids would tell me - to just cool it - and peace out! One year I'm there! It's Cool and peaceful!! Have you guys ever seen them smile bigger!! - ok maybe Torrey is giving Corbin a wedgy.

Just when you think YOU had a bad day...

Ok.... I gave my child something to do - something to do while waititng for the furniture to arrive and this is what he did, or rather they did.

If you want to know more about where you too can make your own BAD DAY please see FERGI so you can spend hours and hours on your computer not getting anything done.

ENJOY! Corbin and Torrey and the time of their life doing it!!

sometimes you just have to have a little fun

Trying to take some pictures for Mom and guess what - I got some extra help - or rather hands at it!!

It Slithered and Slid and Snuck up to get me....

And then TORREY yelled"COOL" "SNAKE", and it went the other way.... and it went into the grass and she ran into the house to get the camera so we could get some pictures of it.
I guess you could say we have an abundance of reptiles that like to linger around all the windows and eat all the bugs. I also have kids that like to chase them, try amd catch them and take endless pictures of them. I myself have been face to face with a gecko in Hawaii while pregnant with Torrey on the toilet frozen so nothing would ever surprise/shaken/or bother me. I like Snakes, in fact in the old days (back when I was their age I even gutted a few of them water moccasons that got caught on the traught line) oops - just started talking back woods talk didn't I. I like frogs too. And yes it has been proven they do get a little tipsy if you do throw them in a bucket of beer (of course Mom the BBQ's Beer was never used for this test). I'm thrilled that we have a an abundance of plant life and varmants living in our back and front yard that Ivan and Dennis didn't scare away. I'm thrilled that we have beautiful flowers just as abundant as the lizards and of course bugs the lizards love to eat! I'm glad the kids are enjoying their adventures out lizard hunting!! I can't wait till Callie comes and meets the Armadillo that has made her home under the deck in our back yard!! It will all be interesting then!!

Seems like there are always a flower blooming at this house!!

Counting my blessings and again when I think I have it all

God reminds me he can take it all back away from me just as easy as a storm!!!!

I finally found the picture of the house we stayed in for those glorious days (see Sept 13th BLOG below where we saw it was all gone and bulldozed away). This is this picture of the house on the beach where we spent the Christmas of 2004 with Nonny and Poppy and Grandma and let Callie chase the birds. As Corbin says "This is the best Christmas ever"!! We stayed on the left side of the house on the top part three bedroom with a loft and that huge window!!
Again - I have been reminded many times this year, God in a second can take my family away from me, my husband away from me, and my life away from me. But God told me HE is on my side and I believed Him, even tho I knew that a year ago and back six months ago and even in March and today I just didn't know how He was going to get me through life and make it easy for me to understand. The Truth of how He was going to be in that fight with me and how the Truth would be set free. Funny in Sunday School the lesson was on TRUTH - How Paul talked to Timothy and even tho my belt might me a lot smaller my belt of truth is much smaller but the smaller it gets the stronger it seems to be.

God can destroy so much in just a moment but building back up takes a lot longer.

Well... the Ferguson's are doing just that building you can see it in our faces - were back to being the family we left.... the last house we left... was the one in the picture above... ironic isn't it!

I look at the picture and just think.... oh - but couldn't you just look out that window one more time and watch the waves hit the shores while doing a puzzle.

One storm, one person, one accident, one incident can change your life forever. Guard your family. I'm lucky - This past year as I look back I finally saw through people and got to see what and who they really were (why I was so blinded I don't know) I got blindsided many times but I got up with the help of people I didn't even know cared for me, got my best friend back and have got to reflect more on who I am as a person. I realize after being here just a month that I too would have survived Ivan and Dennis and fought back if I were here. God gives us these trials (when we lose something or almost lose something) to only fight to get them back or trying to do anything to keep them intact. I also have seen more caring people in the last month since we have been back in the states in one month than I did in the whole time we were in Japan. Just out pouring kindness from people that knew what it was like to have lost half a roof or a car or maybe a whole house just pouring out with love and kindness no matter who they were or where they came from.

Regardless ... The house I am living in now is wonderful.... that 1983 old beach home that needed lots of work and was right on the water was my winter dream home!! Yes, I said dream home but "winter" dream home not summer would have been awful - but if only one more time.... just to see out that window....

but... better to have lost a home (a rented one at that) than a family, a husband, or a life!!

I count my blessings - two of them are out chasing lizards one is mowing the lawn and I am here misspelling words that will be corrected by a husband later when he looks at my Published work that has bad grammar and spelling.

Again - scroll down to Sept 13th for the aftermath of what we saw when it was all gone.

HOME SWEET HOME... and not 360D!!

Finally, I have a home, I have a place, a real address and a real street name. YES! It is now ours, we signed on that line!! It isn't the newest, it isn't the most perfect place but it is mine, ours and it is a place I can color and change and even maybe color the door a different color than it is now. Of course, cleaning without my Tokusan a four bed room, three bath house will be fun (not). So many things to do things to buy - wash - dryer (oh my). The fridge is from 1983, OMG!! but still works better than most used in our previous houses on base. So... now the transition from hotel to empty house.... and wait for the furniture and crates.

I just can't wait to try out my new bathtub with jaccuzzi-style spray thingy's (whirlpool spa).

Andrew and his Kitchen - who could be more happy!!

We have been greatly blessed!!

Matt 34 Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.

ok School is on.... I HATE HOMEWORK....

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so school is on...

homework and all!! BUT.... the kids are loving it!

I didn't realize I was going to have to go and start learning all about the Constitution and the Life Science and of course get my head back into Algebra again. So... guess I have got the books out and trucking along too. Here the school has just 6 periods a day so it is the same each day which is good for them. Lots of homework, procrastination and living in a hotel get the best of us but we should be fully in our EMPTY house by MONDAY. We really have been blessed with getting a house, a church and having everything falling into our hands and laps just so simply. I love the school, I love the clinic (Doctor, assistant and everyone that they have sent me to). I only hate that everyone makes me stay put. I, as I put it earlier miss my kids friends, more than anything!! I wwatched as Corbin read at least four paragraphs written to him by his second mom Miss Deveau and the Joy he had from her that was so delightful, he the just came over to me and gave me a big hug and kiss and I could tell that he just loved me more because he loves her!

We have been so lucky to have met some gracious people that have helped us drive the kids to and from school since we are not on the school bus route. The kids also have found the most awesome Youth Group Ever that even I wish I was 16 again!

I just wanted everyone to know that the kids are doing GREAT they are making GREAT friends and are in SCHOOL making GOOD GRADES and LOVING SCHOOL!! Oh and the COOLEST thing - NO BACK PACKS - they give you books to stay at home so you don't have to carry the stuff back and forth - YEAH!!

What are little boys made of?

What are little boys made of? Frogs and snails And puppy-dog tails, That's what little boys are made of.

What are little girls made of?

What are little girls made of? Sugar and spice And all that's nice, That's what little girls are made of.

HERE IS WHAT ARE KIDS ARE MADE OF!!

Here we are at the cusp of buying our first house and I can't stop thinking about

the perfect house.....
It was the four months of bliss - looking out at the water on the beach in Perdido Key while Andrew was at training just before moving to Misawa. It was Heaven!!! We could still swim and walk the beach with not another soul around. The beach was ours since it was October. Homeschooling and just playing on the beach - fun fun!!

I mourned when Ivan took our favorite place - our bit of heaven - from afar!! I mourned it in Misawa but when we drove by to look where it was gone (they had to tear down the bulding that was partially left) there where no words that could describe the anguish, the anger, the heart ache for those people that LIVED in perdido key and didn't just own vacation houses.


Watching the kids walk back towards me was broke my heart.

You can tell that Perdido Key has been kind of "left behind" in the building the old up. They are just tearing it down to make the "new" bigger stronger more money maker condo's. But this house was special it had a window that you could see for miles in it and a loft where the kids could just look out and see the sun rise!

Living in this hotel four in one room, with only one bathroom really makes you think how lucky we are that we are able to get ourselves out of this situation and this is only temporary. We still see people who don't have a home to really live in and are living out of their van or car or a house that is not livable. It is a sad sight to see on one side all the money makers out there building condo's and selling to the tourists and then people who live here just trying to make an honest buck.
Makes my troubles seem so small. Makes me glad that I can be somewhere where I can maybe make a dent in someone's life!

TAKE A LOOK AT FERGI'S POLL AND VOTE

front of the house
Take a look at some of the pictures of the house we are having fun looking at..... talking about and spending hours with lots of different inspectors and other real important people with.

So... Take a look at Andrews Poll and Vote which is your favorite room . http://fergsoutsidevoice.blogspot.com/ back of the house

The story behind finding the house was we went in and the house was mostly empty except for a woman and a few things still hanging up. I looked at the drapes hanging up to the left of me as I walked in the dining area and noticed all these dragon flies. I asked her if the drapes were staying and she said they were. It was funny because it was then that I knew.....

dragonflies always have a way of following me.... Finding me or speaking to me somehow!! Hmmm.....

I can't go any further without thanking them.....

Ok, I tried to leave without the water works, I tried to quickly get on the plane without having to say goodbye to the most important people that have been my strength through the hardest time in my life. How do you thank them. Well they won't take money, I tried that. They will take a hug and a couple of Monopoly games. I have never in my life met anyone so selfless as the Deveau's (and no, this isn't his write up for Col. since obviously someone out there in the military thinks he is also worth every bit of greatness and full of heart that I think he his. )

You see, They (the Deveau family) took my Corbin from a shy kid and took him in when my husband was gone on tdy or DET and Mrs. Deveau (Susan) and Col Deveau (Paul) let him interact with sports and other things that their kids did. Over the last two years, the Deveaus have been like Corbin's second family and he misses them. He hated missing Brian's Birthday. He hates that he's going to miss the other Soccer games but you know he never would've even considered playing in ANY organized game if it wasn't for YOU guys!!

Mrs. Deveau - Corbin says - "you were one of the nicest and caring people we have ever met sent down from above - you were like an Angel to us. I always felt safe with you" (he really said that)."

Mr. Deveau - Corbin says - " You taught me baseball, you taught me to want to play baseball as a team sport. You didn't teach me to love the Yankees - Red Sox Rule. You also taught me it was ok to have rivals and still be friends in the end. You gave me strength to stand up for myself and not just go along with everyone else. Thank you for making me stronger in who I am as a person."

angel just behind corbin

Brian - Corbin says - "You're the best friend ever. You treated me like a brother, a friend and a punching bag, what more could I ever ask for in a friend. Thank you for always playing games with me even though you were the MONOPOLY CHAMP!!"

Brittany - Corbin say - "You were like a sister to me, thanks for letting me stay around so much!!"

Scootie - Corbin says - "You were a very cool cat, especially when I took care of you and fed you." meow!

So DeVeau Family - as you can see - CORBIN LOVED you guys very much!! I can't tell you how much you meant to me; taking him here and there and feeding him and feeding him and did I mention feeding him. You're the reason he is four inches taller.

Why did I BLOG all this and make this public? - Because sometimes others don't know what small little things that we do for people. You didn't just do a few things for me; you were second mom to Corbin for me and I think only you and I know that.

You went way ahead and stepped up and helped way further than I could have ever asked and funny thing was I mostly didn't even have to ask. And I can't begin to tell of the things you did for other people that only they know about.

I would have never gotten through the last six months without knowing that you had my boy safe in your arms and his tummy filled.

SAY HI TO THE WHOLE GANG AND KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR A BOX IN THE MAIL WITH SOME FUN STUFF IN IT AND SOMETHING SPECIAL. YOU ARE TOP NOTCH AND DESERVE A TOP NOTCH STANDING OVATION!!

Brian and Corbin PLAYING HARD and LOVING IT!!!

ALL is FAIR in POOL PLAY - WENDY RULES!!

Wendy (left) and Torrey enjoying the pool.

Now it's Wendy's pool and we will go through

some of the rules of what "rules"

we are not supposed to really do.

First of all there is supposed to be no

horse play right Torrey and Corbin

Hey look what happens if I put it here next to this place where the water comes out it shoots water out of the tube and that is really cool and, oops hey, I didn't mean to... ha ha

Now another rule is you are not suppose to dive in this pool .... but then again it is Wendy's pool

and of course you are not suppose to go
head first down the slide but then it is BUBBA and it is BUBBA - who could say no to BUBBA and he is Wendy's BUBBA!!

GO BUBBA GO!!!!


ALL FUN - JUST FUN
THANK YOU WENDY AND BUBBA FOR HAVING US AT YOUR HOUSE FOR A BIT OF
HEAVEN IN NORTH TEXAS



Torrey and Corbin - happier than I have seen them in a long time!! Check out the kids blog for some more pics of the kids playing in the water!!
NOW!! some serious stuff!!

The Fergusons would like to thank Wendy and John (Bubba) for taking me (Micki) and our clan (Callie too) and not only being family but knowing that if anything were ever to happen you will always be here for us (me) you are family, you are friends, you are part of our soul and we drink from the same cup. We thank you for loving us and we thank you for caring enough for us that you would be here for us unconditionally as we would be there for you!! Everyone out there in BLOG world - These folks are are one in a 10 million - Ya'll never find your own Bubba and Wendy unless your lucky enough to know them already!!