God reminds me he can take it all back away from me just as easy as a storm!!!!
I finally found the picture of the house we stayed in for those glorious days (see Sept 13th BLOG below where we saw it was all gone and bulldozed away). This is this picture of the house on the beach where we spent the Christmas of 2004 with Nonny and Poppy and Grandma and let Callie chase the birds. As Corbin says "This is the best Christmas ever"!! We stayed on the left side of the house on the top part three bedroom with a loft and that huge window!!
Again - I have been reminded many times this year, God in a second can take my family away from me, my husband away from me, and my life away from me. But God told me HE is on my side and I believed Him, even tho I knew that a year ago and back six months ago and even in March and today I just didn't know how He was going to get me through life and make it easy for me to understand. The Truth of how He was going to be in that fight with me and how the Truth would be set free. Funny in Sunday School the lesson was on TRUTH - How Paul talked to Timothy and even tho my belt might me a lot smaller my belt of truth is much smaller but the smaller it gets the stronger it seems to be.
God can destroy so much in just a moment but building back up takes a lot longer.
Well... the Ferguson's are doing just that building you can see it in our faces - were back to being the family we left.... the last house we left... was the one in the picture above... ironic isn't it!
I look at the picture and just think.... oh - but couldn't you just look out that window one more time and watch the waves hit the shores while doing a puzzle.
One storm, one person, one accident, one incident can change your life forever. Guard your family. I'm lucky - This past year as I look back I finally saw through people and got to see what and who they really were (why I was so blinded I don't know) I got blindsided many times but I got up with the help of people I didn't even know cared for me, got my best friend back and have got to reflect more on who I am as a person. I realize after being here just a month that I too would have survived Ivan and Dennis and fought back if I were here. God gives us these trials (when we lose something or almost lose something) to only fight to get them back or trying to do anything to keep them intact. I also have seen more caring people in the last month since we have been back in the states in one month than I did in the whole time we were in Japan. Just out pouring kindness from people that knew what it was like to have lost half a roof or a car or maybe a whole house just pouring out with love and kindness no matter who they were or where they came from.
Regardless ... The house I am living in now is wonderful.... that 1983 old beach home that needed lots of work and was right on the water was my winter dream home!! Yes, I said dream home but "winter" dream home not summer would have been awful - but if only one more time.... just to see out that window....
but... better to have lost a home (a rented one at that) than a family, a husband, or a life!!
I count my blessings - two of them are out chasing lizards one is mowing the lawn and I am here misspelling words that will be corrected by a husband later when he looks at my Published work that has bad grammar and spelling.
Again - scroll down to Sept 13th for the aftermath of what we saw when it was all gone.
3 comments:
I think I figured out why you were blindsided in Japan. Could it have been that all of you really did not have God in your life, going to church and such with the people you needed to be with. Just an observation. Love MoM
I too MISS that winter home, and yes it was the "best Christmas".
Yes, mom when you have chosen to start changing your norm and start "playing" with a different group of people or person. It's called "Dancing with the Devil" We, make out own choices. After getting back here things are so much clearer and so much less foggy. It's funny that I am so picky who I let the kids "play" with but I'm not as picky with who I spend time with or who I might feel the need to consider being in a close circle of friends. But I wasn't just blindsided - I made choices. It's called free will. It's called trust - In the end again it's called TRUTH! Lies get all twisted and torn up like the Ledlow house looks with broken windows and shudders all broken off. Eventually you have to level it down and come clean. It's the only way you can start fresh and rebuild. "Dancing with the Devil" can cause that kind of damage but it can be rebuilt for everyone
Good to see you counting your blessings! Each day is a gift from God and our friends are too. I am thankful he brought your family into my life.
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